Brian and I like to live an active lifestyle. We sign up to do a couple of excursions as we do every time we go away. This time we chose ATVs. Brian is an adventurer and loves DOING things. I, on the other hand, will put one foot in, get a feel for it first, test the waters and see if I like it. So while we are on this ATV adventure I was driving slow. Keep in mind, I have only driven an ATV once before, and it was quite a few years ago. We were instructed to stay in a line with a distance of two or more ATV lengths between us. I was near the beginning of the line. I was cautious and nervous.
An acquaintance told me how she broke her pelvis riding an ATV. So naturally, My Unconscious Mind decides to bring this memory forward as I’m about to embark on this adventure. We get to a point where we take a short break - a whole bunch of people passes me because I'm going so slow. Fair enough (this used to actually make me feel really bad - inadequate, not good enough - high ten, CUZ not anymore) there are people who are more experienced and want to go fast. Awesome.
That isn’t me, YET. So, we carry on. At this point, I'm not even sure that the person in front of me is the guide. I don't remember seeing him at the beginning where we started. So, I'm a bit confused. This person riding the ATV in front of me also has a passenger, so I'm just thinking he is another person falling in line. Then, I can’t see the other group of people that are ahead of the guy in front of me. I was freaking out (internally, of course). It was my understanding that we were all supposed to stay together, now this guy in front of me is fooling around and has lost the group that was ahead of him (that’s the story I'm playing in my mind). Internal scream.
I'm going to name the guy in front of me to simplify this story. Let's call him Josè.
So, Josè is looking back at the rest of the group behind me. He repeatedly looks back, I'm thinking, did we make a wrong turn? Then, Josè turns his ATV around and goes back to where we came from. I have no idea what is going on and at this point, I'm still unsure of where our guide went along with the rest of the group we were on this excursion with. Now Josè has turned around. WHAT? What’s going on? So, I decide to follow Josè and turn my ATV around too. My husband behind me then tells me that Josè is our guide and that I need to get back in line.
Great. Now that I know that Josè is our guide, I'm a little more at ease. I'm picking up the pace and starting to get used to driving the ATV. Until we get to a steep incline that I'm supposed to drive down. WHAT? Are you fucking kidding me? I'm not driving down that. I say to Brian. He says, yes you are. Just hold the breaks all the way down! Ok, here goes nothing. Now, I'm scared. This hill is pretty steep. I would feel nervous driving down this hill in a car or any other motorized vehicle. I’m really feeling at this point that I just don’t want to do this (meaning, I don't want to drive) because being a passenger would be so much better. Hahaha...lol not really!
I make it down the steep incline and I'm still alive. Woot woot! After that, I was able to follow the guide. It was bumpy and curvy, and more steep hills to go down. Only now, I know I can do it. Now I'm just practicing, getting better, honing the skill of driving/riding an ATV. Once we were on an open stretch, people started passing me, including my husband. It was all good. I just laid on the accelerator and off I went to keep up with them. It was dusty, we were under the blistering hot sun and the wind was blowing in our scarf covered faces. It was great. I Learned that, even though sometimes it is scary to do something new, I did it anyway and had a blast.
By Jackie Thomas-Krezanowski
I’m Coach Jackie Thomas.
I also happen to be a Nurse in the Healthcare field. I’ve been a PSW as well.
I’m a wife and mom who loves her family. But, sometimes, after a “bad day” or dealing with some intense trauma, I was triggered and brought it home to my kids and spouse. It wasn’t working.
At the height of my burnout, I went looking for solutions. Anything to make me feel better again. To love my career again. To reignite my passion again.
I found evolved NLP. The combination of science meets spiritual resonated with me. The work is founded in practices of forgiveness and healing on a cellular level for lasting true change.
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